In Summer Broken
Steve Berman
Ghost stories happen at odd hours, not just October midnights; on a humid June evening, four princes returning from abroad, freshmen come home for the summer, drove the winding and sparsely lit back roads, between dark fields and sullen farmhouses, the scent of the day's manure fading until it’s a whiff rather than a stink as they ride with all the windows down because the Beetle’s air conditioning is long-dead, the service-engine light burns bright, and the only sound is their gaiety, no music blares and the speedometer’s needle falters; the boys are freshly intoxicated and they know police like to lurk in the dark and summer is newborn, it’s the solstice, and who wants to spend the longest night of the year in county lockup? When summertime is newborn so many princes come back to their dominions wary of who might have usurped their roles at court; Mullim and Charles, Nick and Frenches, all tipsy to tanked from the cheap beer served at the Northampton party they abandoned too too early because Frenches ran into his ex-boyfriend in the arms of this year’s prom king: Frenches’s stocky frame, fifteen pounds fuller than last year, expanded, like a threatened pufferfish in a home aquarium, and all eyes at the party watched as he circled his ex- and gestured with a beer bottle warmed by a white knuckle-grip and threats of where he wanted to shove the bottle. His best friend Mullim stepped into Frenches line of sight and calmly told him not to care about someone’s sloppy seconds, and Charles, not-quite-a-best friend, embraced both of them and announced loud enough for all at the party to hear that the ex- wasn’t just seconds, he was as sloppy as the gravy boat passed around on Thanksgiving, and then Nick, who alone wasn’t a local but hailed from an even more distant land, namely New Jersey, and was Frenches’s current beau—he actually refers to Frenches as Prescott because that’s how he goes at college—Nick blocked both ex- and king from taking two steps closer. Nick made sure he cocked his head so all would notice the thick scar that ridged along his unshaven jawline, and to those who didn’t know it was the result of life-saving surgery he had when he was fourteen, it promised a Prince Who Can Handle Trouble. The king of the prom stuck out his hand and thumbed down, spilling froth and suds from his plastic cup (mostly suds: whoever manned the tap was a rank amateur) onto the dirt. The princes were banished, but they departed with rude pomp and style, cussing, throwing their bottles and cups, flipping middle fingers to all the boys and girls as they drove off, heavy on the horn. Only several blocks later did Mullim, behind the wheel of the Beetle, which was once his older brother’s until he was given something new and shiny, realize that he’d forgotten to turn on the headlights, and they laughed at how stupid drunk they were and decided it would be best to travel the quieter but longer pockmarked asphalt rather than risk the smoother, more patrolled highway. As they pass through gloomy Whatley, though on this shortest night of the year the sky is a breathtaking pallet of light blue rising to indigo, Nick demands one of them explain why they all call Prescott Frenches when he can’t even properly spell croissant. Hsu: What happened back in elementary school was Prescott, who went by Scotty then, became the Prince Everyone Dared, and in the cafeteria, every day for a week straight, saw a different lunchtime dare culminating with eighteen little packets of yellow mustard added to his hot dog; what he held aloft as his prize was more mustard than wiener or roll, and he ate every bite, his fingers gunky, T-shirt stained, chin slimy. Charles claims he came up with the nickname. And Frenches, who’s always happy to be the center of attention, wiggles his tongue and makes a joke about how big is Nick’s wiener and, despite their intention to be quiet, there are howls and laughs. Charles hushes them in that insincere manner drunk people have, saying they’re loud enough to wake the dead, and Mullim knows he’s referencing last night, when Charles came over and they watched a scary movie, supposedly an excuse to lie close together in bed, and would the spark ignited years earlier, did it still smolder, after so many months apart, did the heart grow fonder? Nick asks if the back road they’re on is haunted; back in New Jersey, Nick lost his virginity one night in high school while looking for ghosts along the most infamous stretch of road in the entire state, and he looks out the open window at the many trees that are becoming but silhouettes against the sky, that one ahead and on the right looking like something from an old horror flick, maw open to swallow the Beetle, boys and all. Mullim’s the Hand-Me-Down Prince and even his ghost story he can’t call his own but was told by his brother: if you look in the rearview mirror you might catch a glimpse of a car way back, driving down from the horizon, and some nights the car gets closer and closer, and by then, well, it might be too late, as you realize it’s an old car, something sleek from the ’70s, as green as a tropical serpent, you can hear the roar of its engine, which leaves the smell of hot metal in the air, and if the car begins to follow you, if you realize it’s following you, then its headlights wink out—and Frenches laughs as he shouts out, that’s what we did, driving back from the party—and Mullim says you don’t dare take your gaze from the rearview mirror for long or the demon car’s high beams flare, burning like coals, its engine roars and you’re blinded by the glare, forced off the road. The road’s lines, painted on the macadam, the guardrails, even the telephone wires strung from pole to pole along the periphery, all glimmer when a rare passing car’s lights reveal them. Like gossamer and cobwebs are wont to do. And then you’re dead, says Nick. But Charles lifts off Mullim’s Red Sox cap and slips it over his own head, turning the brim around. The ghost’s not a demon car, Charles says. A neighbor who moved away, a friend of hers or maybe a cousin, she saw the ghost on this road. She was driving all by herself, and she was nervous ’cause she had been drinking—just like us, Frenches calls out; Nick stifles the next few words by shushing him with a palm over his lips and Frenches works his mouth to suck on a finger or two—when the girl left the bar where she’d been tossing back beers, she accidentally backed her car into a dirty and rusted pickup, and there’d been any number of Massholes in the bar that night who could own that junker. But she doesn’t stop, she doesn’t scribble down even an apology and slip it under a wiper blade, no, she stomps on the gas and heads out of the lot. It’s a night she wishes she had stayed home instead of gone out, and she swears she’ll be good and she’ll be sober for the rest of her days if she can just make it home that night—and Mullim leans over and says in a low voice to Charles: Would you rather we stayed home? Charles offers a sad smile, not even a half-smile, the same expression he gave Mullim the night before, after Mullim had looked up from beneath the bedsheet, face and scalp all sweaty, lips messy, and Charles’s still panting but scrolling through his phone. The girl, Charles says, is halfway home when she sees the headlights in her rearview mirror and, while she tells herself there are plenty of people who’re driving home that night, like her, she knows in her guts that it’s the guy in the pickup truck wanting payback, so she starts driving a little faster and every time she passes a little sleepy side road, she starts mumbling, Please turn, please turn, but the lights behind don’t and they’re getting closer and closer, so she speeds up to stay ahead of the guy and soon she’s driving over seventy through Whatley… Nick: And then? Charles: Oh, suddenly there are red and blue flashing lights swirling behind her. Yep, all that time, the car behind her was actually a sheriff. Nick laughs at this because, on the night he had gone looking for ghosts but found none and ended up sweaty and stripped bare in the backseat of a Dodge, a cop knocked on the fogged window and almost scared him to death; the other boy was for all intents and purposes, scared straight and wouldn’t even drive Nick all the way back home but stopped at the end of his block and denied everything the next day, week, the rest of the school year, including denying Nick’s existence; Nick guessed it was a way to earn back your virginity, and he sort of did the same thing when Prescott told him that, though he had dated a few boys, he’d yet to do everything, because the last guy insisted he’d only top and Prescott’s high school besties had told him once how awful their first time bottoming went, Charlie, when he gave up his ass, had texted all of them that pain scale they ask little kids to use, pointing to the emoji expression that goes with how much it hurts, with a squiggly arrow aimed at the penultimate grimace, so Prescott was as anxious as a feral cat, so Nick told him that he was a virgin too, and hey, it went kinda nice, much better in a little dorm room bed than the backseat of a car. Charlies tells how the girl pulled over to the side of the road and has begun to cry, thankful tears that it’s not the pickup truck guy coming to rape and kill her, embarrassed tears because she feels like a total idiot for getting so worked up and speeding, and bitter tears because the last thing she did need right then was a ticket for a couple hundred dollars and maybe the cop will understand if he sees a sobbing girl behind the wheel. The cop, meanwhile, is taking his time getting out of his car, and she thinks this is just to torment her, but the thing is, she doesn’t know what had happened to the cop days earlier, when he was doing his cop-thing hiding by the side of the road, aiming that speed gun, hoping to make his quota, when he sees this car from out of state and it’s passing the slower cars, narrowly missing several by just inches…this is a two-lane road, you see that sign, like that one, Don’t Pass…so he does his duty, though he thinks that they’re gonna try and outrace him, so he’s shocked when they pull over, nice and easy. Only, they’re a couple of meth heads and tweaked out of their minds, and when he leans in to ask for their license and registration he gets the barrels of a shotgun in his face, and they let loose with both barrels, and cars passing by, they actually see the cop, poor guy, fly backwards in a spray of gore. Charles chuckles as he’s the Naughty but Nice Prince, likes horror movies and body counts, had more detentions than the other three princes combined, but he doesn’t want to be all bad or even mostly bad, has deep and painful moments of guilt whenever he hurts someone he leaves but, like the girl in the car, knows that the next night there’d be another drink, another oops and accident, and more tears. He came by Mullim’s last night to watch a scary movie, and also because he missed Mullim; they came close to dating once or twice, but Charles knew that fucking Mullim would be, at best, second best because Prince Hand-Me-Down is nowhere near as hot as his older brother, Tam, who would tease Charles whenever he came over, who would lift up the bottom of the tight T-shirt to wipe at a handsome face, sweaty or not, knowing that Charles was captivated by the sight of one-two-three-four, damn, five-six abs. Charles: The cop comes up to the driver’s side and the girl rolls down her window, and it’s late, she hears the cop mumble something, of course he can’t really talk right because he doesn’t have much of a mouth anymore. And Nick is shouting damn, and Frenches grabs him and squeezes him tight. Frenches is overcome with not fear but love, he loves these guys so much, it can’t be because of all the beer, he must have a heart that matches the stomach that digested eighteen little packets of sour mustard without dying. Charles chuckles: And she notices something odd about his uniform--Charles shouts in Mullim’s ear that the cop’s shirt is soaked in blood. Mullim shoves him away, but since they are all sitting in a Beetle, it’s not like there’s much room for Charlie to go. Frenches sees the expression on Mullim’s face and realizes that, while he loves them all so much, there’s not so much love amongst them all, he read Mullim’s texts to him this morning, couldn’t really answer then why Charlie had run off suddenly, but oh, now he has suspicions, so he throws a beefy arm around Charles’s neck, and he thinks, Mullim deserves better, and Charles is the one who always wants better; none of them dares say it aloud, but they know Charles wants to get fucked by Mullim’s big brother, who boasted when Mullim came out to his family one night that he always knew Mullim was gay because all of his friends were faggots, and the naengmyeon on the table became cold and the Tam was grounded for two weeks, and in those two weeks he made all their lives miserable, and Mullim didn’t want either Charles or Frenches to come over his house, not with the way Tamwould taunt them—Tam reeked of varsity football and wrestling and could have beaten the shit out of any of them, making them anxious little kids cussing and flipping the bird, much like they all did back at the party tonight. The party tonight…Frenches realizes that Nick would have stood up to Mullim’s brother, called him a cocktease, made him look away, back down. Frenches is convinced that something happened between Charles and Tam the other day. All because of what he saw on Charles’s phone at the party. So Frenches knows what ghost story he must tell: The real ghost, it’s this kid who you’ll see walking all by himself along the shoulder of the road. He’s dead but doesn’t realize it, he’s not even watching where he walks, so he strays into the middle of the road, like a deer, which is probably how he died. He’s busy staring at his phone—and as he’s telling this, Frenches is sliding a hand into the pocket of his shorts, getting out his phone, which he hands off to Nick, who winks at him, because he can guess what needs to happen—and most people just drive on by without realizing the boy is dead either, but the scary thing is, sometimes a person in the car gets a message from the boy and whatever you do, never, ever text him back because that’s when he’ll show up…in the car with you! Charles jumps as his phone begins to ring, even Mullim is surprised and swerves a little. They all laugh, even Charles: You assholes, such assholes. Frenches has already grabbed Charles’s phone, and despite the way Charles is calling out no, no no no, and trying to reach over the seat for it, now that the phone is unlocked, Frenches can easily hunt and find the photos he caught Charles gawking at when he thought no one was looking earlier tonight. And there’s the pic and there’s more than one, and they’re terrible, a shot of a hand grabbing the crotch of gym shorts with the message miss this dontcha?! and sweet Nick who gawks at the pictures asks: Who’s this guy? and a fast swipe through the lower half of an Asian face makes Nick ask Mullim if the pics are him. Mullim now pays more attention to Charles’s phone, held aloft in Nick’s hand, rather than the road and the car begins careening. There’s a sudden blare that rends the air as a truck, how could they not have seen it barreling down the road, warns them, and Charles has to grab the wheel to keep them on the road. What is that doing on your phone? Nothing, nothing, Shit, oh shit, Who is that guy? Nothing happened. Nothing happened! It’s is the worst thing Charles could say; it’s the worst thing anyone could say on a lonesome country road at night because it’s an admission, and that’s an invocation for something terrible to happen, a guarantee. Nick screams, There’s something on the road. A dog as big as a deer but shaggy and dark-furred, with a terrier’s filthy beard, and the lights from the car reflect in its eyes, making them glow orange, hanging orange eyes. Mullim brakes and the car lurches in the middle of the road. He’s crying and while Charles is asking what, why, how the fuck is that a dog, Mullim is asking about the pictures on Charles’s phone but he won’t answer, keeps talking about the dog, even leans out the open window and yells at it to move. Mullim yells at Charles to get out of the car. What? Get out of the car…I can’t believe you…you fucked Tam…(Frenches thinks: Tam probably fucked Charles, fucked him silly)…there’s a fucking dog the size of a pony out here…good, good, why don’t you fuck that too (bet the dog is hung like Tam: thinks Frenches). Charles makes a show of unlatching his seat belt as he glares at Mullim, as he opens the door. I didn’t mean for any…for anything to happen, I never wanted…aww, fuck this, and Charles’s out of the car and standing there at the edge of the road. Frenches reaches over and puts a hand on Mullim’s shoulder: You can’t leave him like this, he’s a touch fucked-up, but you can’t strand him here. Where’s the dog? Nick asks, and he’s looking back and forth, peering out all the windows. Charles’s face is streaked with tears, but he starts walking, not in the right direction but back the way they came. Nick anxiously asks, Where’s the dog? Frenches: Get in the car, man! Mullim starts the car and turns it around and he starts pacing Charles who’s staring straight ahead. Mullim’s asking him to get back in the car and after the third attempt, he actually pulls ahead onto the shoulder, and Charles, who has never been nimble and is less so while tipsy, stumbles into the car’s bumper and scrapes his knee. Mullim gets out of the car. Guys, do either of you see the dog, Nick says, and his awkward tumble out the door onto the grit-strewn asphalt has an audible crunch and he cradles his wrist. Mullim stabs Charles with his own phone and then Charles punches Mullim, knuckles colliding with nose. Mullim yells out and nearly crumples but then Charles is there, holding him up and saying how sorry he is, sorry for everything, sorry just so sorry. Mullim feels warmth and wetness on his lips and chin, and believes his nose must be broken. Charles strips off his shirt and offers it to Mullim to staunch the bleeding. Both boys get back into the car, Mullim is clutching a sweaty, blood-stained, beer-stained shirt with one hand, can’t put the car into gear and so Charles works the gear shift and everyone hears the transmission groan, Mullim’s steering is off because he can’t see, but Charles says he’s way too drunk to even get behind the wheel, and everyone feels smothered by the tension, and wounds old and fresh. Nick winces and cradling his arm to his chest, Frenches demands they go to a hospital. They pass a farmhouse with boards across the windows, brush growing out of the porch. Around the next bend their headlights reveal a state trooper car quiet beside a worn farmer’s fruit stand. Stop, Mullim, stop, let the trooper take us to the hospital, Nick asks. None of us should be driving, none of us would make it home now, and so Mullim flashes his lights at the trooper and then parks the car on the gravel-strewn shoulder, and the trooper’s sedan rolls towards them. Everyone’s face is streaked, and when the trooper leans an arm on the driver’s door Mullim sees
bloodstains on the trooper’s sleeve and hand
and he isn’t sure if the blood has dripped
off his nose
or
was
it always
there.
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Steve Berman recently relocated to Western Massachusetts and is hoping to do a little ghost hunting in the region. He has sold over a hundred articles, essays, and short stories over the years. His novel, Vintage, also a ghost story, was a finalist for the Andre Norton Award. Berman recently won a Lambda Literary Award for the anthology His Seed.